I thought it would be good to write a spectacularly emotive piece today. I wanted to conjure up sentences that flowed smoothly together building up into a powerful picture.
But actually, the fact I cannot illustrates my point far better than they would.
I am tired. I am exhausted. I am doing too much. I am stopping blogging.
Yesterday was an abnormally busy day. I started writing that day’s post, on why I was giving up on my fundraising drive. And ended it writing a guest post for the God and Politics blog on the ludicrous new report out from the National Secular Society. And in between worked flat out.
That’s one day, and an unusual one at that. But I have realised I need space. I read yesterday on a slightly feminine blog about the need to keep the margins of life clear. My life has no margins.
I have tried, in these last few weeks, to find some smidgen of space to assess my busyness and what I can do about it. Except I haven’t had the time to
I have found I have not given to my relationships what I would like to give to them. I have avoided entanglement opting instead to keep things simple, superficial and easier to withdraw from. That’s why I wrote on Wednesday about the challenges I find with blogging and tweeting and the social side of social media. I don’t want to make claims that are too wide or accuse others where it is me at fault, but I have found it oppressive.
Sometimes I want the world to stop. Sometimes I want to pause the internet. I want time to think, work out how to respond, what to say and how to say it sensitively and clearly. Unfortunately I don’t have that power.
I need to spend time with people building relationships, not spend time writing about relationships.
I find it hard to know when to engage, when to step back, when to fight with all my might and when to ignore the latest controversy that would barely break the surface if it wasn’t for the response it generated.
The pressure to write a few times a week to keep the traffic levels up, to mix in stuff I know will get hits with the mellow thoughtful pieces read by 17 people. The challenge to be the spokesperson for Christian guys on relationships issues (next Sunday I think you’ll be able to hear my thoughts on singleness and the church for various local BBC stations).
It all became too much.
So I am walking away. This blog is officially on hiatus. I don’t have the power to pause the internet but I can pause writing and responding. And when I say officially I mean I have decided not to blog for a while. There’s really nothing official about it, I haven’t asked anyone’s permission. For how long I do not know, probably at least a few months, probably six. (But may change my mind if there’s something I really really must write about…)
I am taking the self imposed burden to write off my shoulders. And I hope to free up some space both in my mind and in my diary.
I’ll carry on writing, I owe a couple of people guest posts I promised months ago. And if you want me to write something I’m happy to consider it. But I have assessed my priorities, and I have decided that right now, this blog is not one of them.
I’m also contemplating a medium term break from twitter, but not quite ready to go cold turkey on that one yet!
9 thoughts on “Hitting the pause button”
“I want time to think, work out how to respond, what to say and how to say it sensitively and clearly. Unfortunately I don’t have that power.”
I just wanted to encourage you that this act of trying to discipline yourself into some thinking space is actually an act exercising the power that you do have. You can’t stop the world from turning or the internet from being frantic, but you can give yourself the space to listen carefully to Jesus before writing a word, or even forming a response. This is a very wise move. So may the LORD keep you well, and speak treasures into your heart as you slow down and come out of the hurricane.
With love in Christ,
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