On Friday I saw someone playing it on the tube.
On Saturday I was introduced to the game and shown how it worked.
On Sunday I downloaded it and started playing.
On Monday I got 2048 and won.
On Tuesday I deleted the game from my phone.
In five day I went from never having heard of the latest craze game to removing it from my phone to cut off the addiction that had developed.
Addiction is a strong word. And the one the best fits.
I thought about the DSM screen for problem gambling, and reckoned I would answer positively to enough questions to be classified as a problem gambler. The lack of money traded and lost, and therefore the questions about getting money to play being inapplicable, only making the impact more marked in other areas.
From Sunday evening until Monday evening I played in virtually every spare moment. On Sunday evening I played for several hours straight. I went to bed with my head buzzing, unable to sleep. I woke and calculated how long I could play before I needed to catch the train to work. And of course I played on the train.
What’s crazier is that after work on Monday I hit the jackpot, I arranged the numbers to reach the elixir of 2048. And yet I went on. I wanted 4096.
Each time I lost I thought I could easily have not made the mistake that led my downfall.
Each time I thought the next time would be better. That if I got to the next milestone I would be satisfied.
On Monday evening I had watched Rev, but realised when reading the discussion the next day I had paid scant attention. Because I was playing 2048.
Sunday night when I want to relax I got more wound up as the numbers stacked up in unhelpful patterns.
A game, that thing intended as leisure, had become a point of stress.
I didn’t want to play for hours on end. And yet I was.
So I took drastic action. I deleted the game.
Sometimes that’s the only way to deal with something.
2048 is a brilliant game. I love it. And I also hate it. It is good, and yet it was damaging me. It had to stop.